Look what FINALLY came!  I have had it on pre-order for ages.  It was suppose to arrive on Wednesday 8/31 which happened to be my birthday but living on the West Coast of Florida and having a Tropical Storm bearing down resulted in an “inclement weather” email saying my delivery was delayed.  But I got it last night. Yippie Skippie.  And so far it is more than I hoped for!!!

Here is an excerpt from the instructions for your first reading (the instructions ask for you not to look up any meanings): “If you feel stuck here are some suggestions.  Look at the words and numbers on the cards and see what they mean to you. Even if you don’t have a set of numerological meanings at your fingertips, you probably have ideas about the difference in energy of say, odd numbers and even numbers (for example, I think odd numbers are spiky and even numbers smooth).  Some cards have words like Wands or Cups on them.  Do those words bring to mind any ideas? For me Swords are sharp and can protect or hurt; they are dangerous and take great skill and care to use effectively.  Some cards called court cards, have words like Page, Knight, Queen or King. What does a Knight make you think of? If you are like me you think of quests and adventures and heroic stories…pretend you are a five-year-old who doesn’t know how to read words yet and imagine the cards or pictures in a storybook…read the story that you see.”  From Barbara Moore’s book Your Tarot Your Way.

Magical!! I never, ever, ever thought of the odd numbers as “spiky” and the even as “smooth” but yes they are!  ūüôā

Ms. Moore has such a light, charming and magical way of presenting her material.  And I am only on page 10.  So, so, so glad I pre-ordered and patiently waited for this book to come!!!


Another Perspective

Today I have picked a different Knight of Cups card.  This Knight is from Joanne Powell Colbert’s Gaian Tarot and this card’s title isn’t the Knight of Cups but rather the Explorer of Water.



The title alone gives me a bit of a different perspective on this card.  Explorer… Explorer of my emotions.  And using my knowledge to grab my board and ride the waves…to deep joy and peace?.  To do this I will need to stay loose yet focused.  In the moment.  The dolphin?  The dolphin, in this card, symbolizes to me intuition, spirituality and flow.  Which is right there with me as I ride.  This card is not about pausing.  It is active.  This card is telling me it is now time to DO.  Use these emotions to find joy and peace.


Now, all I need to do is figure out what I need to do to catch my wave.  I will start by being mindful so I don’t miss it.


It is pouring where I am due to the Tropical Depression in the Gulf of Mexico.  So I will be dealing with lots of water today.  Hope you have a great day!

Long Way Back

Well it has been a LONG time since I have written anything for this blog. Life got crazy. I stopped blogging, working out, doing anything creative… I really just existed. I can’t say it was for a good reason, either, because a lot of it had to do with my job. Not saying I don’t appreciate my job but I have learned the hard way it isn’t worth killing myself over. And killing myself is kind of what it has felt like. I have gained 50 pounds and have had some chest pain. I feel exhausted all the time and no wonder with so much excess weight. My body doesn’t feel like my own. Everything is hard. Maybe some of my issues are self inflicted. I did this to myself.
The saddest thing is one of the dearest people I know and love, my boss, the main reason why I worked so long and hard, had to take medical leave and is so sick she won’t be coming back. In fact, she could be gone from this earth anytime. She has MS and just seemed to work herself out. Those that were closest could see something was going on. But still she worked and worked and kept our team going. We just didn’t know how bad it had become because she didn’t want us to know and worry. Day by day, my dear friend, has been able to do less and less and is fading away. It breaks my heart. 
With all this happening you would think I would have see and faced my own problem. I knew, I just didn’t do anything. I had no drive to do anything creative… Really, anything. My life, my house, my body is all a mess. I have kind of felt like I did this to myself so it is what I deserve. This thinking doesn’t help. I have figured that out. Yes, I did this to myself but I can move forward, even if just a tiny bit at a time. In the last two weeks I have very gradually been working on some very small steps to work my way out of this MESS.
My new focus is tarot. Please bear with me because I understand that there are a lot of people that are going to wig out over “tarot”. As an artist, I love pictures. As someone who has worked themselves into a rut and depression I needed a different way of seeing the world. The way I use tarot cards is as a lens. A different way of seeing. By pulling a card that is just a piece of paper, finding one image or symbol on the card’s artwork (or maybe more) I have a way of looking at my life in a different way. Or maybe think of different ways of being that may be helpful. I hope this topic doesn’t drive you away or label me in a negative way. These cards have actually helped me find my way back to being, at least a little, creative. 
I actually am using the cards as more of a creative meditation. I pull a card, do a quick sketch, then think about what it’s symbol/s could mean to me as I color it in. The first card I pulled was the Knight of Cups from the Rider Waite Smith deck (the deck most people recognize). What could a Knight in armour on his trusty steed holding a large golden cup (huh?) possibly mean to me, my life and my issues? Good question.

As I was picking out images to draw in my journal I picked out the knight on his horse, the mountains, the river and the cup. Although the Knight is the focal images the mountains drew my attention first. These mountains were barren and craggy – kinda how I feel about life right now. 

As I color the roughly sketched image I think about them. What they might mean to me. The river, water, usually stands for emotions. The Knight has stopped by the river and is just staying put holding that big golden cup of his. When I think about these images and how they might help me see things differently, the word Pause comes to mind. Pausing, being with my emotions (the water in the cup), facing them could be something that might help. Yes, I have a river of emotions from the difficult times (mountains) I have experienced. So, I need to stop ignoring them and going full speed ahead with work until I am exhausted and take a break and be. Be with my feelings and everything that is.


When I was done, I had to smile. I had done my first creative thing in ages. I felt peaceful. I felt like I needed to start doing small things to make my life better. I decided a quiet pause, a mindfulness practice would be something to incorporate into my life – which for now will be my tarot drawings/journaling (and if it turns into creative journaling/art that would be great but it is not a goal). I will walk a bit or do some bit of exercise everyday. I will make one (or more but one will be okay) better choice in my eating. That is all. I know better than to go overboard like usual and have a list of all sorts of helpful things to add/change in my life. Gone down that route so many times. I get rebellious (resistant) and all my work goes to waste. Pause. I need to continue to take pauses. I need to let the rushing and craziness of the past months ebb away. It is time for me to slow down. See. Feel.

Right now Iam calm and happy. That is what I can only wish for for myself and for you in any creative endeavor (or any endeavor) you choose to pursue. Have a wonderful day. So glad to be back!

9/16/15 Tarot Practice

Today I am going to use the “In the News” practice from the book Intuitive Tarot: Learn Tarot Instantly by Kelly Wallace. So I will pull three cards about something that is about to happen in the news in the next day or two… then see how I did. The news event: the Republican Debate tonight.


I pulled the 5 of Swords, the 7 of Cups Reversed, and The Fool. I have the one Major Arcana card that speaks of things long-lasting, not typical day-to-day concerns. Then there is the reverse card that means something that needs to be really paid attention to or is something that has been an ongoing struggle.

5 of Swords. Somebody who has overcome his challengers? Or is it that his challengers have given up? If The Donald was being represented by the man in the cloak with the three swords than it look like he is a victor. Now does this mean he will be the victor tonight? Or does it mean that he has become the front-runner? I tend to think he has become the front-runner because he has gotten out in front of the other candidates.

7 of Cups in Reverse. This is something to really be on the lookout for: All the choices? So maybe this card is saying look beyond Donald Trump to all the choices. Another option would be to say that all the options are distracting, but right now, that really doesn’t seem to be the case. Yes there are a lot of candidates in the race, but I don’t think the number is necessarily distracting¬†because it seems like most of them have bowed out into the background. So, I really do think that this card is saying to really evaluate all of the choices.

The Fool. When I see this card I think of a newbie… someone without any experience starting on a new path. I feel like for a long time, more and more people have been getting fed up with the political business as usual up in Washington D.C. This feeling has seemed have been growing over a long period of time… people have just been getting disillusioned¬†with croanie politics. So, the Fool could represent Donald Trump. He is new to politics. But somehow I don’t feel like that is exactly it. Why? I don’t think of him as full of youthful, innocent energy. I think this card is saying that what will be represented is not the usual intrenched politicians playing a political game. The candidate/s that will shine will be the ones that don’t have a history in politics. That could mean The Donald or it could mean Dr. Carson. Somehow I kind of think, in the end, Dr. Carson will shine brightest because of his more pure and innocent nature in the political realm.

What do you think? I will write an update after the debate and let you know how I accurate I think this reading was.



9/14/15 Tarot Practice

Today, because of a sudden change in my work schedule, I will pull one call for the day. I will put down my thoughts about the card and its meaning. Tonight I will re-evaluate my impressions and put down any further thoughts about how the card might have come up in my day.



Okay, so my very first impression is… Another reversed card? Seriously? It seems that my Morgan Greer deck has had a fondness for giving me reversed cards. Since this is a reversed card it is something important for me to pay attention to or a challenge I have been dealing with. It is a Minor Arcana card so it is dealing with my day to day life. It is a Wand, which means action, doing, creativity. And it has a whole lot of flying sticks on it. Does it mean change? Or things are going to happen quickly? Or am I going to come up with lots of new ideas? It could mean any of those. Because the background is green with blue sky and puffy white clouds, I don't think the changes or whatever is going to happen will be bad at all, in fact it looks good. So today I am going to be on the look out for lots of change and/or movement. Change and/or movement I need to pay attention to or relating to something that has been challenging me for a while. What kind of change or progress that will be, I am not sure. I kind of think it will be about work but maybe it will be about home. Heck, it could even be about the stockmarket (I read today was a special religious day when people are predicting the market to crash) I guess I will have to get on with the day and see what happens!

Have a good one!

So, I am home from work and I know exactly what my card meant. It meant my work would go quickly…and it did. For the very first time it did… and that has been something I have been really struggling with because since I started my new job, I have had to leave late every night!

1st Practice

My first practice: I am going to use an exercise that I read about on the website. It is a way to connect with your tarot deck. The tarot deck I will be using is the Morgan Greer deck. It was just delivered today by Amazon. What is really interesting, years ago I had this tarot, and along with many others, gave it away because I didn’t feel like it was the “right” deck. Today when I pulled the cards out I was so taken by the artwork, the colors, the characters. So much so, that I took my time and really looked through the entire deck.

Today I will ask my new tarot deck one question and pull one card as an answer. The question: As a tarot deck, how will you help teach me? I will be using strictly intuition to come up with an answer (no looking up meanings… just looking at the art, deciding what elements jump out at me and what that means.

Also, if a card comes up in reverse I will be putting the tarot card on a background template, right-side up… so the card can be easily read, but also so I have something to remind me that it came up in reverse. Using the Intuitive Tarot: How to Read the Tarot Instantly by Kelly Wallace way to read reverse cards, I will read the card as if it is something that I need to pay special attention to – or something that I am having difficulty with and need to work on.

The card I pulled was:

Of course, my first official card of my first official practice reading is in reverse. So I am going to put down my hot pink template and place my card on top of it right side up.


So how do I read this card? Well obviously, it was in reverse. I am going to read this as something in my life that I am struggling with, something big. I know enough about tarot to recognize this is a Major arcana card which means it is a major life struggle. What kind of struggle? Is it my spiritual life? Yes, that is definitly a part of it. And I have struggled for a long time to find a spiritual practice that fits into my everyday life. This is a part of what the card is saying. The moon in the dark starless sky says to me: Intuition. Intuition is the way I can improve my life and enhance my spirituality. I have been struggling to listen to my intuition for a very long time. It is easy for me to think a problem to death and not listen to what my gut says… This deck will help me this, if I let it.

Thats it. My first practice. I am amazed how this card really does touch on an issue I have struggled with for a long time. I find it amazing that this issue is my decks specialty. How awesome is that?

When you look at this card, what does it say to you? What images jump out as being important? What lesson or advise does this card have for you? ¬†Do you have an issue in your life that this card could address? I would love to hear… so send me a comment. Thats all for now. ‘night!



It all started with Solitaire…Jane Seymour’s character in the 1973 James Bond flick, Live and Let Die. ¬†I was nine. And I was transfixed by those cards Solitaire used… And I had to have some! ¬†I didn’t know what I would do with them, neither did my mom for that matter, but I still wanted them. ¬†I can’t even remember where I actually bought them. ¬†In those days nobody had tarot cards. ¬†But I found some somewhere (probably because of the Bond movie), the Witches Tarot… opened the box and YIKES! For a nine-year old the cards were frickin’ scary (in fact I still think they are frickin’ scary).

And yet as scary as those cards seemed, it was that deck that started me on my tarot journey. ¬†I loved the idea of cards with pictures on them that could be read ato find out things about myself and what is going on in the world. ¬†And though I have read and bought tons of tarot books… bought so many different tarot decks… I could never quite focus on learning the tarot. Why? ¬†For a really long time I thought it was because I could never find the right deck… or the right book for that matter. ¬†I just didn’t seem to connect with the Rider-Waite deck… I loved the artwork of the Hanson-Roberts deck… but it didn’t seem quite right. ¬†I tried the Morgan Greer, the Robin Wood and many other decks but I thought I just wasn’t connecting because of the medieval theme. ¬†I tried so many other non-Rider Waite clones… and so many books to learn tarot.¬†What I didn’t realize was that there was an undercurrent that I felt… that the cards were bad and unchristian.

It wasn’t so much that I thought that. ¬†I didn’t. ¬†I have always felt that if I use the pictures on the cards to help me figure out life and make it better, the God I believed it wouldn’t have a problem. ¬†It was me. ¬†I had the problem. ¬†I truly believed and still do to a certain extent, that other people think I am bad, wrong, unchristian… whenever I bring the cards out. ¬†That includes my family, my husband, friends… ¬†And it has really stifled my desire to learn tarot because it is hard to get anywhere when you don’t practice because you are afraid to take your cards out and use them.

My mind knows that I shouldn’t care what anyone else thinks. ¬†But I do. ¬†Or at least I have until now. ¬†I started this blog so I could have a place to practice. ¬†A place that I am committed to practicing at every day…

I hope that my practice may help others too. ¬†This won’t be one of those blogs where I am pulling cards to give you your fortune about the upcoming week. ¬†No, I want this to be a place where you can come… see the cards I have pulled, read my practice, and maybe use the cards to practice too.

Starting out, I will use practices and methods I learned from Intuitive Tarot: How to Read the Cards Instantly… by Kelly Wallace. ¬†It is a really simple way to get to know cards without getting caught up in all the meanings. ¬†It seems like a really good way to get familiar with my cards and to start the most unintimidating practice I could think of. ¬†As I progress I imagine I will move to a more structured practice but the truth, is who knows. ¬†What matters is that I start and that I practice.

Come join me.  I would love it if you would practice too and write a comment about what you learned.