Today is a BIG day for me at my job. We are going to the all new coding system starting today, October 1st. It is up to me and four other people to get all the coding work done for all our offices. No one knows how it will work. It is kind of like having to translate what we have been doing every day into an entirely different language. On top of it all, the powers that be, have decided to keep a full patient load because they don't want to cause static with the doctors. All of this has been really scary for me. I have tried in the last few days not to let it worry me because truly there is nothing I can do, other than my best. But as the time to go into work gets closer and closer, I get more and more apprehensive… wondering if I will be able to keep up… wondering if I will translate the codes correctly… wondering if our claims will go through so the money will come in and everyone will get paid…
I decided to pull one card today, and holy crap, guess what I pulled?
The Card: Justice reversed.
First Impressions: Holy guacamole, Batman! I got it again! What the heck does it mean? Am I in trouble? It's a Major Arcana card and its reverse, so no doubt it is important and an issue I have been dealing with for quite a while. On top of which I got this card earlier this week regarding work. Does that mean I will get what I deserve? If so, did I not study enough? Will I crash and burn? This card has made me really apprehensive.
So a did a bit of reading. Normally, when doing my daily practice, I don't look up card meanings (since part of getting to know the decks is just looking to see what I see.) And I feel a bit better. This card is a positive card. It is about balance and fair distribution. Staying calm and making well thought out decisions. So, it seems to me, that Justice is telling me to calm down. I am weighed down my my apprehension and fear. I have to feel it and let it pass. My focus for today needs to be at keeping balanced and calm. Funny, the Anna K. guide mentioned the “fair distribution” and that will be something all of us will need to be aware of today since we don't want anyone to feel completely overwhelmed by the amount of work there is to do. Yes… this is an issue I have been struggling with more and more as today has come closer and closer. I need to be strong like Justice, wise and fair. And do my best. The cards will fall as they may (ha!).
Here's hoping you have a great first day of October!